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it's been awhile since i last wrote something..its really been awhile.i have this feeling that i am not growing anymore..i think they call it midlife crisis..the problem is i am just 24 and from what i know that stage is normally appearing when your around 45 or so..could it be that i am abnormal or something?? no....i am happy generally with what i have right now but i want more..contentment? i think that's not what's missing..it's more off knowing that there is something more i can do or there is something more to achieve...i am not really sure but there is something more i need to discover..something more..there's a dreamer inside me and i am slowly loosing him because the practical me is stronger..i will loose him and i don't want to let go because that dreamer is the real me...i want to travel..i want to be promoted..i need resources,..i need time..i need a break.. a much needed break..i want someone to love..and someone to love me back..i am alone and i am tired..tired of waiting, tired of wishing...i need love..i need sex...yes i need love..i want love..please be stronger...please be more patient..please save for your dreams..please try to do something for your dreams..i should be doing something for my dreams..yeah i should..yeah i will..fuck yeah i will...